discovery

April 4th, 2009
Another milestone.
I met his best friend. My father was watching my daughter while Mr Big Man and I went out to dinner and then to his friend's house.
I really, really want Mr Big Man to meet my friends but it seems to be to hard. They are not available when he is and when I am. It should not be this hard, just make it happen but it is this hard. It's very frustrating to me.
BUT I got to meet his best friend and his wife. It was nice. I heard funny stories from their childhood. They have been friends since age 3. They are 41 now. GAWD, looking at "41" .... sounds so OLD. I am dating a 41 year old. I am in love with a 41 year old. That number looks so disturbing ...
WOW! That was off topic. They both talk like each other when talking about certain subjects. It truly was funny. The wife was super nice and to top it off, the first topic was about their sex life! I was like, wow, this is great to know so soon! It was hysterical.
The big news, big, big news is that I found out Mr Big Man tried to get his custody schedule changed. I was like, wait a minute, you never told me this! I dropped it but if you know me I brought it up again when we left.
"So tell me, when did you try to change the custody schedule?"
"About a month ago. Hannah kept having to switch days due to work conflicts so I asked if we should just change it for good. Flip the weekends so I would be on the same schedule as you. I figured she would be up for it since it would help her but she got all excited and said 'NO! My work schedule goes out into the summer and I work every weekend I do not have Little Man.' So that did not work."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"She said no so no changes were made. I didn't want to upset you either. It'll work out. We will get it all worked out."
I think he likes me. I think he thinks about me. I THINK he is moving towards the future. I wish he would tell me these things.

hit and run please

February 8th, 2009
So I am a little crazy. I never claimed I was not.
Since getting on the birth control pills I am not myself. The sex drive has gone back to normal I think but other than that ... I have insane mood swings. Kinda scary. Kinda crazy. He sees them. Mr Big Man knows what is up and does not freak out. He said he figured it would take 2 months or so to level out in me.
Hopefully that is true. Gotta love a man that can take the crazy moods in stride.
So, I asked him this day if he remembers the 31st of January. He said yes and told me all about it.
Then he goes into telling me how he talks about me. His family knows about me. His friends. His neighbors. {side note here. on one visit I walked in the door and his phone rings. I heard him laugh and then hang up. He said it was his neighbor and they said "atta boy" and hung up. how funny is that?!}
Mr Big Man said everyone wants to meet me. I thought that was great but I was thinking I did not know how we would work it since we have our children opposite weekends. He also said his mom will tell him if I need to go. She was silent on his marriage and was not going to be silent anymore.
Oh no!! I want a hit and run meeting. Meet the parents. Walk out. He said no. Damn!