Friday, January 30, 2009

RICH man, POOR woman

Septermber 8th, 2008

As most of you know I am on Eharmony again. I was matched with a 40 year old. Damn, that sounds old, doesn't it? Well to put things into perspective, 30 sounds old and that is my age.
Anywho, we did the whole communication thing. I saw his photos. Good looking man. In a lot of the pictures you saw HUGE houses in the back ground. Like one, he is on the deck of the house and these HUGE McMansions are in the back. That's fine and dandy.
I called him last night. This was our first phone call. On the call he tells me things - not bragging but very matter of fact. He has boats. He has the McMansion in the picture - found that out by what part of town he lives in. He has multiple cars. HE HAS MONEY.
YEAH! I met a man that has money.
CRAP! I met a man that has money.
I have no money. I have no money. Yes, I am credit card debt free. However I do not have savings. I am living paycheck to paycheck. I do not have the fancy clothes. I do not have the money to get a bikini wax and get my hair "did" every month. I do not have the fancy toys. Dude, I need a new fridge and I can not buy one yet.
I felt inferior. He never asked me about my financial situation, he never asked me how much money I made ... nothing like that came up. I made myself feel inferior because I know my situation and I heard some of his.
He asked me out on a date. We decided on a lunch date.
I don't know if I want to go because how can a RICH man want a POOR woman like me?
And when did I start to think of myself as poor?

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Help me Rhonda

September 4th, 2008
Help me Rhonda! Help help me Rhonda!
Holy Hot Shit Bat Man! My sex drive came back. With a force. From out of no where!!! I do not think it has ever been this strong. I mean I had nothing for some time now.It is strong! It is powerful! It has used too many batteries ... poor BOB (battery operated boyfriend).
I was not in a rush or a real need to find a man. Now I kinda am. He is gonna be one happy camper!
Is this how a man thinks? Sex, sex, sex, sex, sex. Sex. More sex. Poor, poor BOB.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Ostrich Syndrome

August 2008
Can I just bury my head? I am getting these forward emails from my friends about how they became a couple with their man. Am I the ONLY single woman I know? Oh my word ... am I?
I sent a message back to STOP sending me the emails. I don't want to hear about their happiness. The response back? "Oh Darling Nikki, have fun with it". So after thinking about it I was like ... I'm game.
This is my email Darling Nikki style:
1. What are your first names? Darling Nikki & Mr Perfect
2. How long have you been together? a lifetime
3. How long did you know each other before you started dating? We meet on the 1st and were dating on the 2nd and married on the 3rd
4. Who asked who out? he did
5. How old are each of you/were you?I was 30, he was 27
6. What are your astrological signs? Pisces and whatever sign matches Pisces the best
7. How tall are each of you? I am 5'0 he is 5'9
8. Who's mother do you see the most? Mine
9. Who’s siblings do you see the most? his
10. Do you have any children together? We have 2, the most beautiful precious children ever. I do also have my daughter, her father died in a freak accident and Mr Perfect adopted her .. so really I have 3 of the most beautiful precious children ever.
11. What about pets? yes
12. If so, what kind? a cat, a dog, horses, ponies, birdies, a peacock, some mice named Jack & Gus Gus, deer ... wow, the list can go on and on
13. Which bill is the hardest on you as a couple? none, he makes a ton of money
14. How do each of you work? I am a stay at home mom and he does his Mr Perfect business
15. Is that what you went to school for? no
16. Did you go to the same school? no
17. Are you from the same hometown? no
18. Are you from the same hometown now? what kind of question is this? Mr Perfect & I live in a cottage in Hawaii. We also have a home in Italy shaped like a boot, a house in the mountains in Colorado, a log cabin in Maine, a mansion in Switzerland, a castle in Ireland ... really I think we need to downsize.
9. Who is the smartest? depends on the topic
20. Who is the most sensitive? me
17. What is your type of date restaurant??? any 4 star or the place around the corner that looks scary from the outside but has THE BEST food ever.
18. Where could be a place you could drag him to to shop with you? We have personal shoppers.
19. Where is the furthest you have traveled as a couple? Well we ARE going to the Moon next month.
21. Who is the most sexual? Tie. We have sex all the time.
22. Who has the best group of friends? All of our friends are wonderful. That includes you too!
23. Who has the craziest exes? Well since my daughter's father died in a freak accident we do not have any crazy Exs.
24. Who has the worst temper? Neither, we are Mr and Mrs Perfect

Did ya like that?? I was pretty proud of myself.
EHarmony is going OK. I have made it to open communication several times and then to phone calls a few. There is nothing to "write home about" so far. Where is my Mr Perfect for now?
Still no sex drive. However I am happy. I am really happy and I'm having a lot of fun.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Going once, going twice ...

June 2008-July 2008
Who will I date next? I am signed up for EHarmony. I have high hopes for this. I am ready to meet a man I have chemistry with. They seem so few and far between. It is not an automatic thing for me. I have not felt that chemistry in such a long time. Will it ever show itself again? I am disappointed in the number of matches on EHarmony. There are very few. Am I that hard to pair up with?
Oh but here is one ... right here, right here, right here!
I sent him questions.
He responded right back. Hey! He must be online!
I answered his questions and sent more.
He responded right back! Oh!! Be still my heart. It's beating like crazy.
I write. He writes back. Again. And again! We complete the entire communication within 10 minutes!
It's time for open communication.
I am SOOOO excited! <insert hand claps>
I ask him questions. He replies back!! With answers. hmm. I sent another with more questions. He replies back! Just answers again. Dude! Don't you know you need to ask a woman questions??!!!! Show some freakin interest!!
I wanted to write that. I did not.
OK, this one is a dud. Crap.
I decided to change my search radius from 5 miles to 60 miles.
Oh my word! I was going from 4 new matches a week to 20 a day! This is gonna be fun!

Monday, January 26, 2009

Waste of time with Mr T

April 2008 - June 2008.
I'm ready. Can you hear me roar?
One big thing has occurred since I last wrote. I lost my sex drive. Gone. Nothing. No desire to even use BOB (battery operated boyfriend). I LOVED BOB! However he sits in his drawer oh so quiet. Not a sound. I am not worried about this for I was not ready to date. I am ready now but I am OK with the no sex drive. It shall come back.
So my friends know I am single and ready to go. One hears my plea to set me up on a blind date.
I shall call him Mr T.
So you remember Mr T? He had all the gold around his neck ... my Mr T did not have the gold around his neck but spent money like crazy and bitched about how he had no money. DUH!
However he was nice.
We went out on several dates. I moved to a new house in May and he helped me move in. What a trooper!
Other than that, there was nothing. I think I continued to go out with him to waste time. To laugh at what a goof ball he was.
I had no desire to kiss Mr T. I had no desire to hug Mr T.
I let him go.
I think I shall try EHarmony. Isn't that to bring me my soul mate. My perfect match??

Sunday, January 25, 2009

I'm not ready

Early May 2007
Latest news? Mr Hottie called me and brought up the fact he was dating others. This I knew. He said he had something to tell me. He has gone exclusive with another. He is sorry. He really likes me but things progressed faster with the other lady.
I laughed. I am OK with this. I am not ready to date. This was a relief.
I told him it was nice knowing him. Good Luck with everything & take care.
Time to take care of myself so I will be ready next time.
I canceled all dating web sites.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Going to Hawaii

April 2007.
Time to set up the 2nd date. I have a work dinner I need to go to and we are asked to bring our husbands / boyfriends / supporters. Hmm, we are not boyfriend / girlfriend. He is not really my supporter. Who cares! I will ask him to go anyways! He accepts.
I go to this house to pick him up. He has a nice house. He shows me his son's bedroom and the HUGE bed he made for him. This bed is a giant and takes up a whole wall. I get a sneak peak at him bedroom too!
We head off to the dinner / meeting. We get there and all my co-workers / friends know I am single. They pull me aside one at a time or quadruple team me to ask "Who is he? He is a good looking man!"
I correct them "He is Mr Hottie!". They agree. I get thumbs up. I get high fives. Damn, I knew he was hot but I did not realize how many people would like him too.
And he likes me!
The meeting is terribly boring. However there is talk about the team going to Hawaii. If we do well enough we can bring out supporters too. I look at him. He looks at me.
He says "So when do we go to Hawaii?" I think we wink at each other.
During the drive home I ask him if he is going to kiss me after the date. He thinks this is a riot. Dare a girl as for a kiss? This one seems to.
We kissed good night and off I went. I know he likes me. I know he is dating others. I know we get along.
We talk about sex on the phone. DUH! Not a lot. Just let him know I like it. I think about it. I want it.
But I do not think I am ready yet. My several year relationship just ended in February and this is only April. I do not think I am ready.
But damn am I horny.

It's easy to leave for lunch

It is now the end of March, beginning of April 2007.
Mr Hottie & I email back and forth for several weeks. It is fun, it is flirty, it is good.
We need to meet in person. I email him and say "Buy me lunch! It's cheaper than dinner. We have a time limit - so we do not need to make up a lie as to why we need to leave if things get scary. I mean, we have to get back to work! AND it's daylight so we see the real person not the fake one with the special glow from low lights. What do you think?"
He agrees, we decide on Bennigans. He is better looking in person. Much better. Pictures do NOT do him justice. His eyes! His LIPS. Oh my word. Delicious.And he has a great body. This man is freaking HOT. His nickname fits him very well.
After lunch I get a text that I have a great ass.
That makes me smile.
I do have a great ass!
I shall have to see him again I think.
During our phone calls I imagine what it would be like. How aggressive is he? How much in control? I have a pretty good size sex drive but I usually do not have sex right away. How long should we wait?

March 2007

March 2007.
I am single. I think I am going to try Internet dating. I am in my late 20's. I am looking to have fun and if I meet the right man that would be perfect.
The first thing I am going to do is sign up for One month.After browsing I found several people that looked interesting and I wanted to know more.
But wait, what is this?
I can be really blunt at times. You will learn this.
Looking at pics on Match, I stopped on one and said "DAMN he is hot!" Then I kept going. I did not open his profile up and read it until later. I liked it but did not think we were a match. Why? Because the man is flippin HOT. He must be vain. He must want tall chicks with long blonde hair and blue eyes.Not me. I am short. Brown hair with brown eyes. I need those stilettos. I work them!
I am gonna email him. I shall call him Mr Hottie.
Damn he is hot!